i always think about this... everyday and every night i always pray to have my dream come true.

i become jalouse when it comes to my friends... but, when it will come to me?

i plan it every single detail. i know nothing's gonna be perfect but i want it become like what i always dream... i know it will come... i just need to be petient and pray more and more than before...

i hope it will come soon... 13/12/2013... i hope it will be....

lots of hope,

me...

sharing somthing here...

who knows about life... one day we happy and come another day we sad... Allah always tests us every single day of our life in this world. for sure there is "hikmah" betwen the tests. only us does'nt know how it works...

last nite was a nite that i can learn more about life... who knows Allah let me saw an accident... the victim was a motorbiker. maybe he just went back from buka puasa or met someone. so sad when i saw him lying on the road with blood came out from his mouth... i'm not very sure the cause of the accident but what i saw just the victim and his motorcycle...

then, somthing come out from my mind... who is this man? where he come from? did he have a wife and children? did they know about it? i'm very symphaty for this man family...

when i arrive at home, i went to clean up myself and perform solat... i prey for thos man. i hope his family can see him again and celebrate hari raya together... although i did'nt know who this man, but i know he is a muslim. so, i thought that the only way i can help him with prey...

so, for all my friends and family... i hope all of you becarefull all the time. we don't know when our time come...

my new world....

for a few years I try to find better job but I always fell... lots and lots of resumes I sent, lots of lots of interviews i attended but still no luck for me...

however, last month i send my resume to this comny through email... few weeks later they called me to set an interview session... one week later, i'm so suprise they call me and told me that I got the job... Alhamdulillah.... i made it...

now, i am here as 1 of their staff under KUB management sdn bhd... although i still new here but i hope i can contribute something...

for sure, my journey is not ended... i'm still searching....

just say u love me....

no matter what happen u still in my heart...
no matter what u did to make me hate u but u still the one for me...
i always love u no matter what happen no matter what make us fight...
i always love u everyday everynight everysecond of my life...

only one that i need from u...
please dont leave me...
please dont make me ur x...
coz i cannot be anything o anyonewithout u...

please...
just say that u love me...
coz...
i love u so much until at the end of my life...

truely deeply,
me....

no need title for this....

when i feel to say something, my tongue cannot work with me...

everything inside me still always be inside....

some things can be share but the rest of it keep inside until the time for me to go...

i'm not mad and i'm not scared.... but i feel so sad... very sad... no one can understand... i myself do not understand... everything is upside down.. my life so mess... is it the world so cruel? or is it life to be blame? or even people become selfish to reach what they want...

how long can i stand like this? how long can i be like this? every changes i made always make me cry... and make me keep everything inside me...

at the bottom of my heart.... i feel very sick....

this is me.....

never say love if u didn't mean it....

love... 

is what we share each other..

is what meant to both...

is what happen to us...

love....

make our life perfect...

make us happy all the time...

make us appreciate each other...

love...

for you and for me...

for him and for her...

for them and for all...

love...

can change colours of the world...

can change blurr to bright...

can change tears to smile....

abang...

you might not my first love...

but i know and i'm very sure that you are my true love...

people said, first love cannot be forgotten...

but for me, true love is what i bring and keep until the end of my life...

may Allah bless us and our relationship...

i love you more and more every day every night every hour every minute and every second of my life...

i love you so much.....